Saturday, January 23, 2010

Here we go again... another ride

So, we are a bit on an emotional roller coaster right now. Addison is doing well her heart function is "low-normal" as her Cardiologist, Dr. Chang described. However, he is concerned that her mitral valve leak has not gotten any better.

He informed us today to expect her to go back to surgery in 3-6 months from today. Then, later in the appointment, he said MARCH!!! Yes, March. I was in such shock that I could not even cry, I had this stupid look on my face like,  "did he just say that?" 

After the appointment we took Addi to the lab to get blood drawn, I was still in shock and it slowly started to hit me that this could actually be our reality. Tears started to roll down my face as I relived our 5 week heart repair ordeal 5 months ago. Then I caught Addi looking at me with her little Addi gaze. I wiped the tears from my cheek and smiled at her, she smiled back. Then I realize that I can be the Eeyore mom about all this or the Tiger mom. I know that if I cry and whine about this, it only makes it harder on Addi.

So, I need to save my energy for her and make sure that no matter what God's will is, I am 100% there for my little girl. We do not have any other details this moment and we will be clearer with the path we will be taking in the next few weeks. I will update this blog as soon as I hear anything. So, please check the blog for any updates. I know last time I used facebook but not everyone had an account.

God has a promise and I want to collect on that promise Exodus 23:25-26 "Worship the Lord your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I WILL TAKE SICKNESS FROM AMONG YOU,... I WILL GIVE YOU A FULL LIFE SPAN."

Please pray for Addi's sickness to be healed and for Jesse and I to make wise decisions.

Jesse, Nicole and Addison